Some things that cross my mind:
1. It doesn't feel like the end of the year because the semester isn't over yet.
2. Tomorrow I can start saying that I'm 23. Actually I already am according to the Hijri calendar. Anyway, the auntie at Haby & Wools (and many other aunties) think I'm still 18 (or younger). But it's not very cute when your students' parents think you're their kids' classmate.
3. I still have two-and-a-half letters to embroider on that bag(-flap) that I started working on at least a year ago. Plus several other projects, either unfinished or not even begun.
4. Donna Tartt's "The Little Friend" has been sitting on my desk since Leila bought it for me at the Big Bad Wolf sale, but I haven't had the chance to read it yet. I did finish the two Alexander McCall Smith novels (that my mother bought), though. They were the best. Alexander McCall Smith has the most relaxing, calming prose ever. Hilarious characters, too.
5. I did the unthinkable: skipped a class to finish an assignment for another class. It was a calculated decision, but I still hate myself for it.
6. I made many wonderful friends this past year -- from the History department, debate events, and JOC. They taught me a lot.
7. So many friends got married. I miss them. I hope they'll be great wives and mothers. I know they will.
8. Stanford J. Shaw (and his wife) made my life difficult. Amazing knowledge, though. Must've spent their lives living the lives of the Ottoman sultans (and subjects) and the early modern Turks.
9. Sometimes on the nights before tests, I come extremely close to giving up ("A, A-, fail, whatever" thoughts), so I give up (let out huge sigh, plunk the books on my face, next to me, wherever) for a few seconds, then I resume revising. Usually while singing along to happy songs ("this is my message to you-oo-oo/Don't worry/about a thing/'cos every little thing/is gonna be all right...") from my laptop.
10. I've never imagined that we were going to settle down not in the city, but we did. And I'm loving it. But of course, it's not difficult to love Malaysian kampung areas/life. We have to drive a long way for our shopping, but otherwise it's a fabulous life. However, there was one ugly incident: our house was broken in (the burglars took three laptops, some external hard drives, some cash, and a few other stuff -- talk about evil and inconsiderate), which never happened when we lived in KL.
11. For the first time in my life, I picked durians (that had fallen from their trees) from the ground. I will probably get tired of durians sometime in the near future. But alhamdulillah. Fruit trees!
12. The cow dung in the orchard totally brings back memories of school holidays spent at our Parit Bintang (Batu Pahat) kampung -- where me, my sister and our cousins had a fantastic time playing hairdresser and rumah hantu, watching the cows (and other animals), walking to the kedai runcit at the end of the parit together, going to town with Mak Tok, and cooking (I remember doughnuts and Maggi goreng). Now those cousins are married, with kids. How strange.
13. I've made friends with some geese and one extremely pushy cat (with eyes like Taylor Swift's, except she has blue eyes and Kontot has green ones) who swipes at you when you pat her, does not stop mewing until you give her her food (AND she's a very picky eater, too!), and does not know what "giving up" means. If I had an attitude like hers, I would easily score a 4.00 GPA every semester, absolutely. Sometimes I want to scream "what is wrong with you?" in her face but I don't have claws and she does.
14. My exams will start in three days' time. I have an awful lot of revising to do on, among others, post-Independence Malaysia, modern Europe, the Ottoman sultanate, and medieval India. Yes, sometimes I get very tired of all this mental time-travelling, and sometimes I cannot wait to be able to specialise in one period/civilization after this degree.
15. Which reminds me, I had some really nightmarish tests this semester.
What those nightmare looked like (from India under the Sultans and Mughals and Niche Debate V):
7. Subuktigin defeated the Hindu Shahiya ruler _________
True or False?
8. In an Australasian debate the adjudicators may confer to reach a verdict.
Those questions don't exactly seem difficult, do they? But they're very specific, and I have a problem with specific...when I didn't prepare well.
8. I really must start revising now. Like you, I have a future to prepare for.
May all of our good dreams come true, ameen.
And He plans
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