All things come to an end

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Those last days before the exams! A journal-entry is in order.

Wednesday [19 December 2012]

Day: I felt sluggish the whole day. After US History class (5 pm), I couldn't stop yawning...yawned all the way back to my mahallah, halfway through dinner (only because I decided to just sleep after yawning through the first few mouthfuls).

Night: Received two pleasant surprises in the e-mail, from King's and Manchester. Ayah was not impressed hahah. I'm not worried though, I'm his daughter I don't have to impress him (I just need his approval). Plus, whatever options I have, my priority is to pick the program that offers (1) the most intensive Hebrew lessons -- I am still that girl -- and (2) the best training in Jewish historiography [why do you think I'm in the History department, not Usuluddin/Comparative Religion?]. I need tools, strong ones.

I was relieved because this means that no matter what replies I'd get from UCL, SOAS and Oxford in the next month or so, I would have these two offers as insurance...but honestly I was more concerned about the next day's exam, because I haven't started revising for it at all.

Most of all, it was comforting to know that after, like, seven years of dreaming and planning and waiting, things are actually working out in the right direction. Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli hal wa ni'mah.

(The reply from King's also reminded me how I'd made an embarrassing error in the personal statement I sent them -- I'd mentioned UCL instead of King's in one of my sentences! -- but I guess the MA Convenor and whoever else it was that read my statement very kindly ignored that goof. My face burns just thinking about that stupid, stupid mistake.)

I forced myself to read up for the exam. Another delayed bedtime.

Thursday [20 December 2012] 

This was the last day of lectures...the last ever for my undergraduate years! I spent it like any regular lecture day, attended classes from 10 am to 12.50...

...except that at 3 pm, we sat for our first final exam paper -- for Rise and Fall of Civilizations. I was not super-prepared for the topics that came out in the questions, but overall I enjoyed the exam. Alhamdulillah. I am still not sure whether the second question meant ALL the Hebrew prophets or just the ones after the destruction of the Temple, but I focused 80% of my essay on the classical prophets, and only discussed the Patriarchs in one paragraph. Totally left out Moses and Solomon...deliberately. Allahu a'lam. Let the lecturer judge my judgment.

Really, the things you second-guess once an exam is over! (Once after the Ayyubids and Mamluks exam, I worried about my interpretation of a preposition in the question. It said "achievements in the military field", and I was horrified because while answering the question, I thought it said "achievements on the military field". I mean, did it mean the actual battleground or the more general military field? Oh forget it).

After the exam, I met up with Iimaan. She gave me a bag...the Human Sciences canvas tote I'd wanted so much!


Terima kasih Iimaan. Just what I wanted :)

9 pm: Night out with my History sisters, we had dinner at the place across the kubur. I (We) ate pulut mangga (awesome), seafood goreng (in a sizzling plate), kerang rebus, cendol (the one at KLCC food court is way tastier), several varieties of Secret Recipe cakes (I don't understand cheesecakes), kerabu mangga, sotong goreng tepung (they should've called it tepung goreng sotong), kangkung goreng, a bit of tomyam, daging goreng merah...and looked at the kailan goreng, udang goreng tepung, steamed siakap and rice.

Is this my first time blogging about what I had for dinner? I know I wrote about food before, but full dinner menus? Anyway, nobody bothered to take photos of the food.

Back at the mahallah, began compiling the video on the Blackfoot tribes around midnight.


Friday [21 December 2012]

Finished rendering the video around Fajr (U-Lead only crashed once! Alhamdulillah), but the format I chose made a really low-def video, so I re-rendered the thing as HD. Waiting for videos to render is really boring so I got me some sleep first. Fancy HD (widescreen) format distorted the subtitles, though, so I re-rendered it into a different setting when I woke up at 8:30 (or was it 9?). Typed a couple more paragraphs about President Wilson's New Freedom campaign and his illness and death, concluded the biography, put in the references, done with the paper.

10:30 am: Walked to library, unloaded two bagfuls of books into the After Hours Book Drop hole-in-the-library-wall. Went to HS building.

Dropped the CD with (a) a PDF of Woodrow Wilson's biography and (b) a video assignment on the Blackfoot Nation in Prof. Kopanski's door-box -- those were my last assignments as an undergraduate!

11:30-ishNisa' and I went to see Dr. Wan Suhana for consultation about our performance in her courses (plus a few other things).

[Oh and I've just checked the marks for my Islam in Modern SEA open book test ugh. Now getting A would be (not impossible, but) rather difficult. Still within reach, though (I can only afford to lose 3 points in the final exam!!!). I'm a ray of sunshine.]

Noon: I called Dr. Hafiz to see if I could pick up my paper on Egyptian Jewry at his office...but he was in a rush to attend a meeting so I'm going on Monday. Spectacular carry marks for Muslim Nations in Contemporary History, alhamdulillah, but I still need to ace the final exam for an A in this course.

Crossing off the days; the Peloponnesian War not part of my January plans; 
fined for expired stickers on the laptop and iron


The future looks like my dreams, but leaving this place is proving to be harder than I thought.

More later, inshaAllah. Make du'a for me, o readers of good faith!

Overwhelmed

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HS building levels 4 and 5, Friday 21st December 2012.
 Heartache.


Oh mirror in the sky, what is love?
Can the child within my heart rise above?
Can I sail through the changing ocean tides?
Can I handle the seasons of my life?

(Landslide, Dixie Chicks/Fleetwood Mac)

Sunday, December 23, 2012

All things come to an end

Those last days before the exams! A journal-entry is in order.

Wednesday [19 December 2012]

Day: I felt sluggish the whole day. After US History class (5 pm), I couldn't stop yawning...yawned all the way back to my mahallah, halfway through dinner (only because I decided to just sleep after yawning through the first few mouthfuls).

Night: Received two pleasant surprises in the e-mail, from King's and Manchester. Ayah was not impressed hahah. I'm not worried though, I'm his daughter I don't have to impress him (I just need his approval). Plus, whatever options I have, my priority is to pick the program that offers (1) the most intensive Hebrew lessons -- I am still that girl -- and (2) the best training in Jewish historiography [why do you think I'm in the History department, not Usuluddin/Comparative Religion?]. I need tools, strong ones.

I was relieved because this means that no matter what replies I'd get from UCL, SOAS and Oxford in the next month or so, I would have these two offers as insurance...but honestly I was more concerned about the next day's exam, because I haven't started revising for it at all.

Most of all, it was comforting to know that after, like, seven years of dreaming and planning and waiting, things are actually working out in the right direction. Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli hal wa ni'mah.

(The reply from King's also reminded me how I'd made an embarrassing error in the personal statement I sent them -- I'd mentioned UCL instead of King's in one of my sentences! -- but I guess the MA Convenor and whoever else it was that read my statement very kindly ignored that goof. My face burns just thinking about that stupid, stupid mistake.)

I forced myself to read up for the exam. Another delayed bedtime.

Thursday [20 December 2012] 

This was the last day of lectures...the last ever for my undergraduate years! I spent it like any regular lecture day, attended classes from 10 am to 12.50...

...except that at 3 pm, we sat for our first final exam paper -- for Rise and Fall of Civilizations. I was not super-prepared for the topics that came out in the questions, but overall I enjoyed the exam. Alhamdulillah. I am still not sure whether the second question meant ALL the Hebrew prophets or just the ones after the destruction of the Temple, but I focused 80% of my essay on the classical prophets, and only discussed the Patriarchs in one paragraph. Totally left out Moses and Solomon...deliberately. Allahu a'lam. Let the lecturer judge my judgment.

Really, the things you second-guess once an exam is over! (Once after the Ayyubids and Mamluks exam, I worried about my interpretation of a preposition in the question. It said "achievements in the military field", and I was horrified because while answering the question, I thought it said "achievements on the military field". I mean, did it mean the actual battleground or the more general military field? Oh forget it).

After the exam, I met up with Iimaan. She gave me a bag...the Human Sciences canvas tote I'd wanted so much!


Terima kasih Iimaan. Just what I wanted :)

9 pm: Night out with my History sisters, we had dinner at the place across the kubur. I (We) ate pulut mangga (awesome), seafood goreng (in a sizzling plate), kerang rebus, cendol (the one at KLCC food court is way tastier), several varieties of Secret Recipe cakes (I don't understand cheesecakes), kerabu mangga, sotong goreng tepung (they should've called it tepung goreng sotong), kangkung goreng, a bit of tomyam, daging goreng merah...and looked at the kailan goreng, udang goreng tepung, steamed siakap and rice.

Is this my first time blogging about what I had for dinner? I know I wrote about food before, but full dinner menus? Anyway, nobody bothered to take photos of the food.

Back at the mahallah, began compiling the video on the Blackfoot tribes around midnight.


Friday [21 December 2012]

Finished rendering the video around Fajr (U-Lead only crashed once! Alhamdulillah), but the format I chose made a really low-def video, so I re-rendered the thing as HD. Waiting for videos to render is really boring so I got me some sleep first. Fancy HD (widescreen) format distorted the subtitles, though, so I re-rendered it into a different setting when I woke up at 8:30 (or was it 9?). Typed a couple more paragraphs about President Wilson's New Freedom campaign and his illness and death, concluded the biography, put in the references, done with the paper.

10:30 am: Walked to library, unloaded two bagfuls of books into the After Hours Book Drop hole-in-the-library-wall. Went to HS building.

Dropped the CD with (a) a PDF of Woodrow Wilson's biography and (b) a video assignment on the Blackfoot Nation in Prof. Kopanski's door-box -- those were my last assignments as an undergraduate!

11:30-ishNisa' and I went to see Dr. Wan Suhana for consultation about our performance in her courses (plus a few other things).

[Oh and I've just checked the marks for my Islam in Modern SEA open book test ugh. Now getting A would be (not impossible, but) rather difficult. Still within reach, though (I can only afford to lose 3 points in the final exam!!!). I'm a ray of sunshine.]

Noon: I called Dr. Hafiz to see if I could pick up my paper on Egyptian Jewry at his office...but he was in a rush to attend a meeting so I'm going on Monday. Spectacular carry marks for Muslim Nations in Contemporary History, alhamdulillah, but I still need to ace the final exam for an A in this course.

Crossing off the days; the Peloponnesian War not part of my January plans; 
fined for expired stickers on the laptop and iron


The future looks like my dreams, but leaving this place is proving to be harder than I thought.

More later, inshaAllah. Make du'a for me, o readers of good faith!

Friday, December 21, 2012

Overwhelmed


HS building levels 4 and 5, Friday 21st December 2012.
 Heartache.


Oh mirror in the sky, what is love?
Can the child within my heart rise above?
Can I sail through the changing ocean tides?
Can I handle the seasons of my life?

(Landslide, Dixie Chicks/Fleetwood Mac)